Integrals

Do you treasure the existence of every living thing, avoiding stepping on ants, giving clothes to the poor and feeding the hungry, valuing family above all else, while at the same time knowing that for the greater good you have to snuff out the snuffable?

That's why I don't worry about comma placement as much as I should,..,;.,,';/.

Have you ever heard of ASCII art?

How many sleeper cells do you operate?  Can you manage seven billion dots on a page?  Sure you can.  Think laser/inkjet printer or modern pocket camera phone.

Every one of us is a dot on a page.  Microdots and macrodots.

I sit here while the sun warms both the atmosphere and the things sticking up from Earth's surface and wonder why I place typing above fishing today.

Besides, what is a sleeper cell?  You think it's some clandestine operation out to take down government, don't you?  Wrong!  You're a sleeper cell.  You have a set of wants, desires, social training and body parts that can be activated in a moment's notice without you knowing when or why.

Don't believe me, as usual?  Well, try not to respond to anyone or anything you see today.  Don't eat food, don't wear clothes, don't stay indoors and don't stay outside.  You can't not exist, can you?  Thus, you're a sleeper cell.

Simple facts for simple lives.  We're all simple.  Believe me.

While there are more Chinese online users than there are Americans and soon more than Americans and Europeans combined, you go on with what you're doing and ignore whatever doesn't matter to you.  Don't pay attention to the desert flies or the biting insects in Iraq.  Don't look at the ingredients of the processed food you're eating.

After all, we're all going to die, aren't we all?  Are we all?

Do you know how many entities around you are nearly immortal?

Go ahead and admit you have a tendency to anthropomorphise immortal beings.  You will guess that nearly immortal beings are people, members of Homo sapiens X.

Ah, grasshopper, you have much to learn.

Are you Hispanic or Latino/Latina?  Are you white or Caucasian?  Are you black or African-American?  Are you native, red or American Indian?  Are you Indian and not red?  Are you Oriental or Asian?  And if you're none of the above, are you None of the Above?

How far into the future do you want to look?  Do you see that mobility makes not only political borders antiquated and soon to be extinct but also makes ethnicity part of antiquity, too?  Thus, are you focused on global citizenry or backwards-looking insular behaviour?  As always, you always have a choice.

The freedom to be.  When you learn to celebrate your heritage but hug your global citizens equally, then you know freedom.  When you see you/we are nothing, then you embrace everything at once.

Simple, isn't it, letting go of fear?

All these words and not one planet can understand what I'm saying.  Why do we have words like aether, ectoplasm, dark matter and such?  Do you know how antiquated we already look?

Ten years into this millennium - are you already all ready for the next one?  A tenth of a century gone by.  Ten centuries seems like such a short time to those who live thousands of years at a time.

You will never live long enough to see everything that's ever been discovered.  How long do you want to live if you can't live forever?

Would you trade mortality for anonymity?

Would you accept the fact that being a dot on a fading photograph is what life is all about?

Current technology defines the words I use and the meanings you bring to the table.  Can you see what you haven't yet heard?

Before you can trade your self - your current vessel - for something that lives longer, you have to show you willingly give up your self to the aether, the ectoplasm or the dark matter/energy.

Do you understand that you do not exist?  Do you see that a mirror is just an illusion of reflections?  Do you see the self that is just a temporary amalgam of this moment's definition of tautology?

Can you walk away from you?

Everything to know is there in front of your body or the instruments that are extensions of your body.  Do you have the integrals, the slices of time, to interpret everything in people terms while maintaining everything's non-people meaning/existence?

People will keep inventing because that's what people do.  We will live long enough to see more than one invention that never gets out of the momentary need for necessity.

Separate inventions from discoveries, however much you want to see the two as the same or similar.

A new motorbike exhaust system that improves fuel-burning efficiency and lowers lost heat is not the same as saying we've proven the existence of another subatomic particle.

However, in both cases our knowledge set increases and makes us more firmly believe in the existence of us as individual entities.

Stop right there!  In fact, stop your beating heart, stop your breathing, stop your neuroelectrochemical processes, stop everything about you altogether.

You are not you.  You do not exist.  You are the combination of everything that is not you that is the combination of everything that is not them that includes the combination that makes up what you/they/we want to call you.

Now that you are not you, are you ready to be a different not you you can't imagine because that not you has never existed before and will never exist in that form ever again?

The transition is as easy or as hard as you want to make the transition.  At some point, you are you and then at the next adjacent point, you are not you, and then at some future point (adjacent or not, it doesn't matter), you are the other not you that doesn't exist, is nearly immortal and anonymous.

And to answer one person's question, yes, death is an example of the transition but not the only one.

We are imitators.  We are repeating parrots.  We mimic.  And through curiosity, we combine our imitations to create new imitations for others.

Can you be you as not you without repetition and curiosity?  I can't tell you.  Just as much as politics is the game of compromise where nothing is as it seems, so, too, is the situation of you becoming not you, ad infinitum.

And to answer one person's question, yes, having children is an example of the transition but not the only one.

Why can't I tell you if repetition and curiosity is a part of the not you you will become?  Because I am not you.  You decide how you will become not you that is part of everything that is not you, including/excluding the you you were before.

After the transition happens, you no longer exist in any shape, form or fashion but others will carry memories of you that keep you you in virtual form.  If you never existed, how can there be a virtual you left over from your previous non-existence?

The paradox of semantics.  These words!  How do you explain state machines and moments and the absence of time and the existence of impartial partiality to show that the training that turned nervous system echoes into personalities proves that what you see is real but doesn't exist?

The happenchance of genetics.  The appearance of order out of chaos.  Intelligence is an anomaly of planetary changes - useful, mind you (I like being here as a wellfed, relatively happy "me," even if I don't exist) - but intelligence is not everything.  Being unique is simply being unique - everything is unique.

Our species in its current form is very young.  So very, very, very young.  We just cannot imagine being around a thousand or a million years, let alone a few measly billion years.  We're accustomed to hearing our body functions, watching the planet spin "daily" and "yearly."

I was a happy baby and I am a happy man.  I see the world through young eyes with old thoughts.  I look back at us from a few thousand years from now and laugh at our seriousness, so attached to our current body forms as we're wont to do.

Start teaching ourselves and our offspring that our bodies truly are temporary vessels and our personalities as we know them do not exist.

Trust me.  These words are insufficient to show I know what I'm talking about so assume I don't know what I'm talking about and you'll know what I'm saying to the you that is really not you at some future moment.

The eddies and whirlwinds that spin off of us are just as much us as the organisms that live in our pores and our guts that keep us alive and healthy.

In other words, there is no you.  There is only the semipermeable, semipermanent, membranous vessel that the echoes of a nervous system that moves the vessel along thinks that it's you.

In other words, you are already not you so it should be easy to make the transition to a whole other not you that doesn't exist, which may or may not recognise these words or the evidence of the existence of a you that didn't exist.


Or you can skip these words, go outside, enjoy the day and catch some fish which don't know they don't exist.


Life is one simple integral, a tiny slice, a moment at a time.  That's all this blog entry is saying.